I recently have felt overwhelmed recently with hype. Both my own, and that which surrounds me. In reading the memoirs of the early church, there was such an authenticity, a genuineness about their faith. Christianized propoganda becomes so disillusioning, and it separates us from the meat, from the substance that is the genuineness of our faith. I'm not wanting to get on a soap box or anything but Im in a place of intensely contending for authenticity in my own life and heart...therefore Ive happened to notice that everyone around me is actually struggling with the same thing.........Its getting to the point where I dont even recognize it anymore..I've ceased to be able to discern between the jaded and the pure...but my heart is burning for the latter.

at first I was like okay maybe this is the type of thing that we just wont ever overcome......I had settled in my heart that this is okay....this is a part of the fall.....we will always to an extent......be lacking in our understanding of what truth is..and we'll somehow always chase something less than the fullness of authenticity....I said in my heart...this is okay

but recently here in the last 2 weeks the Lord has been speaking something completely different to my heart.....there is such a greater level of revival that's going to be released on the planet and its coming in a real authentic, unjaded way..and its coming at the hand of the living God...and NO ONE will be assisting Him........He's wanting to transform the earth and cause the earth to learn righteousness....its coming and its coming at the hand of the victorious Bridegroom King

The other day I was sitting with a little girl named PHUMLA at an orphanage in J'berg...and I asked her if they taught her about Jesus here..and she said "when the american comes they teach us" .....thne she proceeded to say " but I think about Jesus at night when Im sleeping" and I said yeah what do you think and she said "I think that He is friend and best Father"

When Phumla said this to me my heart was provoked in such a way that it awakened a question that has been looming in my heart that I havent been able to articulate which is......how come it doesnt seem this simple?....Christianity...the faith...the WAY....the walk with Jesus........how has it become so perplexed and complicated.........

we have somehow become inoculated by the termonology, models and methods that we have idolized and we totally miss it...we totally miss the purity that children like Phumla experiance.....I need more of this is my life......more of experiances of Him that arent aided ....

Ive specifically been thinking about the prophetic...and purity in the prophetic..and how for the past 3 years Ive been "eagerly desiring" its reality in my own life...and how in some seasons Ive walked in it more than others...and also what Ive dilluted it to.....even in the prophetic song.....how Ive changed so many things that the Lord has spoken to me for the sake of not offending people.........and the fear of man.....but heres the deal ...if its from the Lord....truly...He doesnt need my assistance...He just needs my mouth and this is how its pure.....and it becomes complicated and questionable once I decide I want to help God......Im sure He's flattered but completely uninterested..haha........He doesnt need us filling the silences with our own ideas and methods..and "little ditties"............

Ive decided to blog on this topic because I feel like this thing that's plaguing me is also plaguing the the church as a whole and its starting to find its place in the "world of missions". ....and Im not okay with that...Im not okay with being unaware of the lesser things that compete with purity in my own heart and the heart of the family Ive become a part of..the Bride.......Im willing to go down praying for a type of Christianity that is its name....that is of CHRIST......

I only wanna be an instrument not the musician.....

So this is the complete overflow of my heart right now.....Im somewhere between the dying and the rebirth.....currently in refiners fire.......hearing and learning things from His heart that are tough my heart to get....but I love the journey......

every part of it is beautiful.........

Help us Father...make us like your Son..in all of our weak ways....