Ive been reminded in recent weeks of my utter need of the leadership of the Holy Spirit in my life. Im learning painfully that I cant even love Him lest He give me grace. I cant even get myself up for a day and convince myself to love on orphans or even pray for the sick lest He breath on my heart. Lest He give me theGRACE!.............a hard truth that the Lord keeps throwing in my face is laboring in my own human zeal will not at all sustain a life in Him. Mere Human zeal is what causes such an intense burn out rate of missionaries........people going out and laboring out of a duty based, martha- like mentality and this mentality leads to the death of passion. and a death of passion pushes me closer to buying out and going home.

 Im really to lazy right now to articulate all that the Lord has been speaking to me about this subject....but I just wanted to share a little bit about it since I see so many and hear so much about people ministering out of duty instead of love, and laboring out of their own efforts...and I absolutely refuse.....I refuse it for myself and I refuse it for this generation of people who are saying yes to 'taking the nations" .........let us pray!!!!

on another note

"the awakening" has been more than I possibly could have imagined....everyday I wake up I try to figure out how in the world am I here and what in the world makes me worthy to do what Im doing now...and then I hear Him speak to my heart....."nothing".........

Im more tired right now than Ive been in a long time but its a refreshing ( I do this because I love him) kind of tired.................

working with all of my peers and attempting to "lead' them....has been placing within me a deep compassion and a deep hope for my generation. ...a hope that there is an actual, real "awakening" thats happening within the hearts of people...and its GLORIOUS!..........

Africa of course is rocking my face off....thats not said lightly.......everyday as I go into local townships..I'm learning the most profound truths from the "least of these".......its humbling...and I LIKE IT!!

love the Lord.love the people

DAVY